Bright as day, BBNaija’s Ka3na has set out to reveal some interesting facts about her childhood that shaped the way she is, and it was quite an interesting read.
In her self-expository read, Ka3na wrote;
”I was a lonely child. Don’t get me wrong; I had people around me-parents, three siblings who were loved more and treated
better by extended family because they were obedient and not vengeful like I was.
The harrowing thoughts in the back of my mind made me distant, so I tried to change. I tried to be softer, funnier, prettier-everything to fit in among a crowd that was not even mine.
I attempted to make a home with people, but I failed. Now, thirty years have passed, and I’ve spent all this time trying to come to terms with the fact that humans fade in and out of each other’s lives.
You can’t possibly make that sound romantic. I wake up every day unable to maintain connections with those around me. One day I want to be close to my friends and laugh until I cry, and the next day I can’t bear to be with them.
They say I speak too little, but what’s the use of talking when you already know they won’t feel how you do? I’m not antisocial; I fantasize about the idea of not being what people expect me to be.
I’ve stopped defending myself~and others too, if I’m trying to be honest. Detaching seems like the only way I can get through this lifetime. I am not empty; I am filled with rage and love.
What I will do with it, I don’t know. I’m going to spend one more hopeful day and fall asleep under the shadows of uncertainty.
Sometimes I wonder: ARE THERE PEOPLE LIKE ME OUT THERE? Those who are always alone but never lonely? I am Ka3na TBL!”
This expository look into Ka3na’s mental space is something out of the blue because she hardly posts in-depth things about her life, and the public is usually constrained to viewing only the luxurious part of her life, where she flaunts wealth.
